Become insane

Here I am. I'm talking to myself about angels and monsters. I really think we are both. The angel tries to light the other side, but the monster goes out sometimes. The monster is in sadness, in angry, in gluttony and in anxiety. And when he appears the selfdestruction system starts. It sucks. It's Carnival. I'm at home on monday and I'm feeling bad things. I'm bored, I'm sad and I'm feeling crazy. Sometimes I want to desappear, to die or whatever... I don't want to feel this anymore.